I've got that song stuck in my head. I love "My Favorite Mistake". So good. I don't know why I like it. I just do.
Wow. Today was really really busy.
Got up early and we all went thrifting. I got a bunch of stuff, some skirts and slips (for wearing over skirts) and some fabric and a neat belt that broke but is fixable. Then went to Grand Buffet for lunch. Dropped Mom off at home and Dad and I went to some more places. Went to Sam's. I bought Zoo Tycoon. It was the complete set with both expansion packs and everything. FOR ONLY $25.50! I've been wanting it for ages, could not pass that up. Went to Gramma's. Grampa bought me a watch. It's really nice. Water proof and lights up. It's not digital, so it'll last longer, but it'll also take me longer to read it. (I was never skilled at reading the clock. I have to process it...). Stomped some CDs for Dad. Tried to get to do something with Kate but it was too late when she finally called. Now I'm trying to see if Yume-chan wants to watch BoogiePop Phantom tomorrow.
Mom's master cylander went out again. We've only had this new one for a few weeks. That is not good. The car's under warranty still, so we don't have to pay anything, except for the rental car. Unfortunately, they aren't gonna work on the car until Monday. Gotta have their break too, even if it inconveiniences the customer.
*sigh* Everything's been so wacked lately. Everything's out of sync. Oy vey.

Yeah. I went to the psychologist (not psychiatrist) and she talked to my doctor doctor and now I'm on Prozac.
Apparently, I'm depressed and have anxiety. O.o Tell me something I didn't know.

i stealed it from someone's lj who was linked to Yume-chan's lj...heh. I's a theif.
Have you/are you/do you....

{x} Considered a life of crime? Yes.
{x} Considered being a hooker? nope
{x} Considered being a pimp? ...no...
{x} Are you psycho? we'll see what the doctor says.
{x} Split personalities? define "split personalities" :-P
{x} Schizophrenic? No. Yes I am! Shut up! But we are! No we ARE NOT!
{x} Obsessive? yes
{x} Obsessive compulsive? Not technically.
{x} Panic? yes
{x} Anxiety? always
{x} Depressed? very
{x} Suicidal? sometimes
{x} Obsessed with hate? no
{x} Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? not unless i'm doing the goring...and only (ALWAYS) in self defense
{x} Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? see above


Are You....

{x} Understanding: usually.
{x} Open-minded: Yes.
{x} Arrogant: I don't think so. I hope not.
{x} Insecure: very.
{x} Interesting: Yes.
{x} Hungry: yes.
{x} Friendly: depends.
{x} Smart: sometimes.
{x} Moody: very
{x} Childish: i can be.
{x} Independent: Yes.
{x} Hard working: yes.
{x} Organized: sort of.
{x} Healthy: not really
{x} Emotionally Stable: not at all.
{x} Shy: yes
{x} Difficult: when i want to be.
{x} Attractive: I don't think so but Jon thinks I am. I don't understand but hey...whatever.
{x} Bored Easily: depends
{x} Thirsty: No.
{x} Responsible: yes
{x} Sad: yes
{x} Happy: sometimes.
{x} Trusting: No.
{x} Talkative: Depends on who I'm around.
{x} Original: Very.
{x} Different: Oh yeah.
{x} Unique: Yes.
{x} Lonely: not really. no.
{x} Color your hair? If I were allowed I would.
{x} Have tattoos? No! Needles...baaad
{x} Piercings? see above.
{x} Have a girlfriend? I'm a girl...I have a boyfriend.
{x} Floss daily? yes.
{x} Own a webcam? Nope.
{x} Ever get off the computer? HA!
{x} Sprechen sie deutsche? Nein.
{x} Habla espanol? Si. Muy buen.


Currents

{x} Current Clothes: Cow print pj pants, Aliens tshirt and kimono.
{x} Current Mood: bored.
{x} Current Taste: watermelon gatorade and rice...
(x} Current Hair: 2 braids.
{x} Current Annoyance: Life in general.
{x} Current Smell: ...clean?
{x} Current thing you ougt to be doing: not a thing.
{x} Current Desktop Picture: A wall by meredith of Chobits.
{x} Current Favorite Group: Hmmm...hard to decidex}
Current Book: "A Great and Terrible Beauty" bu Libba Bray
{x} Current DVD In Player: none
{x} Current Refreshment: none.
{x} Current Worry: life.
{x} Current Crush: Jon...tat's so corny...
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: Johnny Depp! OF COURSE.

Favorite...

{x} Food: RAMEN!
{x} Drink: Any orange sody pop.
{x} Color: Black.
{x} Shoes: Black boots. or cowboy boots. or chinese slides.
{x} Candy: Nikl-nips
{x} TV Show: InuYasha?
{x} Movie: Sleepy Hallow and Almost Famous
{x} Dance: Swing, even tho I can't...or Flamenco, which I also can't do.
{x} Vegetable: Broccoli.
{x} Fruit: Mango!


On preferences....

{x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? Hot chocolate. or both.
{x} McDonalds or Burger King? Burger King.
{x} Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? Both.
{x} Sweet or sour? both!
{x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Root beer.{x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror? Horror.
{x} Cats or dogs? both
{x} Ocean or Pool?ocean..
{x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? CHEESE!.
{x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling? Jell-O. Mmm
{x} With or without ice-cubes? Without
{x} Shine or rain? shine
{x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? summer.
{x} Vanilla or Chocolate? swirl!
{x} Gloves or mittens? Gloves.
{x} Eyes open or closed? blinking.
{x} Fly or breathe under water? both.
{x} Bunk-bed or waterbed? Waterbed.
{x} Chewing gum or hard candy? gum
{x} Motor boat or sailboat? Motorboat.
{x} Lights on or off? dimmed
{x} Chicken or fish? chicken.


What's your favorite:

{x} Number? 18. or 3. or 6. or 9.
{x} Holiday? Halloween!!
{x} Radio station? WEBN or THE FOX
{x} Place? Pioneer Cave in KY.
{x} Flower? those orange lilies
{x} Scent? can't smell much...
{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? not here.
{x} What would you be doing? not sitting here alone on the computer.
{x} What are you listening to? hte humm of the computer
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? Why do you want to know?
{x} Do you have a favorite animal? ALL OF THEM! But horses and llamas and rodents and dolphins and giraffes and anything cute...

AND THAT IS IT!

This post shall be quite different from the last few.
Today wasn't too bad except for the unprovoked tirade in the car given by my mother. No details.
She's all happy now.
O.o I don't get it either.
Up and down up and down up and down I go.
I'm reading an AWESOME book. I'm actually reading! I mean, I read tons, but it's during the WEEK!! Needless to say, my sleep is lacking, but this book is JUST SO GOOD!
It's called:
"A Great And Terrible Beauty" by Libba Bray
Very dramatic title, but it takes place in the Victorian era, which I really think explains such a title. It's very different. It's about a girl who sees visions and can travel between realms. It's very...intrigueing.
I like it muchly. Muchly goodgood. *nods*
Yeah...so...that's about it. I think.

First off, for those who read my blog and questioned me about it (Jon Wood) I'm sorry to have disturbed you.
I was in a bad mood. Those seem to happen frequently lately, and more...rageful than usual. My crying so often, I think, is partially (note: only partially) a result of my suppressing my violent rages and refusing to let myself throw and smash things as I so desparately need to do.
*eye twitches*
So. Yeah.
Went to my Regular doctor today to see about my depression. I think she quashed my parents hopes of just putting me on meds and letting me be. Nope. She thinks I need counseling. I agree, to be honest. The idea scares me, because I have trouble talking to people. So...yeah. I think...yeah.
That's about it.

Today STUNK like yesterday, but for different reasons that I really don't feel like going into. If you really wanted to know, you'd ask. But you don't. Because you're all insensitive jerks. I just know it.
Feh.
Screw everyone.

I HATE LIFE.
Today sucks majorly. IT JUST DOES AND SCREW YOU.

RIP SIR CEDRIC THE GERBIL OF MONGOLIA

My gerbil died today. It totally sucks. I love him so much, and he was gonna be 4 next month. He was unconscience when dad found him. It took him a long time to die. He was just curled up in a little ball...his eyes were bleeding. I just sat there soo long hilding him and crying. I want my little gerbil back. He was so funny, especially eating his toilet paper tubes, or sitting on your hand and then biting you... I miss him so much. So...much. I want my little gerbil-boy back...
I'm sorry...This is too sad.
On the bright side, no school tomorrow.
But I can't go to Alex's for the snowball fight. Figures. I never get to do fun stuff like that.

Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Pleas Vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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You are Count Dracula! Good for you. You do not
care for the lives of others, just your own. So
yeah sure a lady comes by once and a while and
something happens but you must live! That is
all that is on your mind now.
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VICTOR: You are victor!

1400-years-old, he is the supreme Vampire overlord
who has been sleepong to restore his power.
Selene trusts him as she trusts no one else and
daringly awkens him when no one else believes
her discovery of the Lycan plot to destroy the
Vampires. Viktor is tall, powerful, haught, and
ostentatious. And ruthless. He had his own
daughter, Sonja, executed when it was
discovered she was secretly involved with a
lycan leader. Many have elevated him to
celebrity status. Many others wish him dead.
But Viktor has his own secrets and a dark side
no other Vampire has ever known ... he may have
been the one who began the ancient battle
between Lycans and Vampires.





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I don't like this result.

Well, most of you who read this, I'm prolly close enough to that you already know.
I've broken down.
My parents are taking me to the doctor. Not a psychiatrist. Yet. First, I have to see my regular doctor apparently.
I'm screwed up. I know that. I don't need her to tell me that. Just give me the name of a good shrink and I'll be on my way, hopefully a lot happier, less suicidal, self-depravating.
I hope.
I hope.
I wish for so much in life, and how often do I get the littlest wishes? Rarely, if ever. *sighs*

So yeah...it does.
Here's what I'm taking next year:
-U.S History and Gov Reg.
-English Lang AP
-Zoology
-Statistics Reg.
-Spanish 2AA
-Beginning Design Studio
-Creative Writing
-Time to Speak

Yeah. I think that's it.

Field trip tomorrow. That means I only have to go to Art, math, and English tomorrow! Yay.
Dad got me that Trapt CD. It's good.


Why is it so hard to make myself smile?

You are the dark fairy, emtpy on the inside, could
care less what goes on in the world, you just
want the hurt to stop.


What Color Fairy Are You?
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.


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Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

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What kind of dark person are you?
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You came from the darkness. Non-trusting, you most
likely will spend most of your life alone.


Where did you come from?
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Water. Whatever you do, where or when, you do it
with all of your heart. You listen to your
heart and all of your emotions are true
non-acting. Friends are very importent to you
and you will do anything for them. You're the
most dreamy of all 4 elements.


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*sighs* well, lovely, optimistic results, aren't they?
:-P >.<

I'm sorry about the last post, i'm fine.
Went to Jon's last night. It was his sister's, his grandmother's, and his mom's best friend's birthdays. We were online and I found an MP3 download of the COMPLETE BLACK ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!! Which I have been looking for for ages. I mean, the MP3 isn't the same as the actual bootleg, made exactly like the White Album, but it means someone has it!! IT EXISTS!!!
molly fell down the steps today.we're keeping her in the kitchen. mom wasn't home. i totally freaked out. she couldn't go up the steps and was favoring her leg. she totally Flipped, went head over heals down the steps.she's ok now, but i'm worried about her anyway.i called mom at the rectory but she and gramma were at lunch so darlene (housekeeper there) gave me gramma's pager and i called that.see, molly stepped on my foot and then tried to back off and flipped. literally.i think she may have hit her head, but she's ok.
Saw League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. It was ok. It was NOTHING like the comic. Which is, in my book, horrid. THe effects stank. I suppose it would be ok if i was such a comic book freak and had expected it to be like the comic (which everyone said it was, but they were WRONG). *sighs*
I have a bloody headache.
>.<

This week stank. It stank beyond all reasoning. If you don't know, I had a breakdown and was crying this week. There was so much to do. I'm sick of optioning and all the homework, and tests being pushed here, and then there and then there and I'm sick of weights and Mr. Collins, and why isn't Mom's cold going away? This isn't a cold...I feel it's much much worse. I'm afraid. Of everything.
It was just...a combination of everything. I'm hating it all over again.
I'm feeling better.
At least, that's what I tell myself.
That's what I tell you.
I just got back from Lisa's party, and now, even though I had a good time, I want to cry. I want so bad to cry. I want Jon here to make it better. I want everything that makes me want to cry to just leave me alone for a while.
I had a good time. I kept spacing out, I suppose. I got picked on. Why do they say those things? I laugh with them, but it doesn't mean I'm not a little bit hurt. My head is pounding.
My ears are clogged. I want to die. I look at the tiny scars on my arms that no one but myself can see. I put those there, and the only thing keeping me from making the ones that bleed again is the fact that I promised I wouldn't. Jon I love you. I need you.
I'm so happy...except I'm not. Don't you see, I'm very slowly crumbling, that even though I may periodically forget my rage and sorrow, it will come back to me ten minutes later, and twice as bad? How can you people not see that? Why won't I listen to those of you who do? Because I'm afraid. I'm sorry Dad. I didn't mean to get mad just now. You were trying to help. I'll call him tomorrow. I just wish people told me things. I always learn the last, the slowest. Either it's because I'm not smart, or you simply "forgot" to tell me.
My head is humming and it won't go, 'cause you don't know.
The piper's calling you to join him.
I wish I could join him. Maybe a few broken promises wouldn't hurt. No. I won't do that. So many people already hate me. Or so it seems. At least...to me, 2 is a lot. People I thought loved me. Wanted me to be me. Cared.
I never see you anymore. I don't have time, you don't have time, it's the wrong time. And now that you'll have a job, when will I see you ever? No refuge, even on weekends because you need your sleep. I have trouble sleeping. I know what I need, but it's impossible to get.
The illicit seems more and more comforting. Turn away, turn to you, turn around, I'm lost. I'm whipped. I don't care.
What am I saying? I'm just rambling...stream of thought, stream of mind...what is it? I can't remember. That's the problem. I can't remember. It might be better if I had a clear grasp of the few happy memories I hold. But all I remember is the dark. The black, the red, the maroon...the rusty color of dried blood in little lines that I wish were there again. I lick at them, taste the iron, and for a moment, I'm not me. Not anyone. Numb, no one. No problems. Just...nothing.
How can I say all this? Will you think less of me, love me less? The few of you who care enough to read my futile efforts at communication because I can't actually say what I want to say?
I just close my eyes and imagine your embrace, but it's not enough. I wish you were here. I wish I was there. I wish...
I wish for release...And I'm still here.

Tonight we went to get the rent-a-car from Enterprise. We all went so mom could take the temp car and dad took the old one. Mom went on her way to the store, and dad and i to target and the library. Got some gym shorts and Lisa's birthday prezzie (which rocks, of course) and then left. On the way to the library, I was amused at dad's outburst of cussing out a driver and flicking him off. If you know my dad, you know, he NEVER loses his cool. NEVER. Twas hilarious. But then he started making jokes on the way home about idiot drivers driving with their thumbs up their rumps (his words) and that was...amusing...and he started laughing really really weirdly so i asked what he was on. He said he wasn't on anything but i persisted and then he imitated Leo from That 70's Show (or Chong...I think...) and that was HILARIOUS as he rarely does impersonations, and he did this amazingly well. When we got home the cat was being stupid, and he thought it funny when i said "Get inside, retard" after she wouldn't stop walking in circles on the porch. Then we were watching T.V later and for something about corporations came up and dad's like "Yeah, the white man's keeping me down" and that ...I couldn't get up.

All the pain I had been in earlier from gym, it was doubled from all the laughing. I was crying, it hurt so bad, and I couldn't stop laughing. Now, the pain is ebbing away, slowly.
I haven't laughed that much in ages.

Oh wow was today painful. I mean, really, really, really painful. Woke up at 5 something. Mom's care is in the shop being repaired. So dad had to take me to school and I got there way before 7. He did take me to Buskins and I got cappacino (muchly needed) and donuts.
Had to carry all my stuff cuz of quizzes and homework and stuff. It wasn't that much, it's just, I couldn't get to my locker to get rid of what I didn't need. So I had to walk up the two hills home on the day I had all my stuff. And I was so starved and already pained cuz of gym (where I forgot me shoes and had to borrow Grace's ). I made Ramen when I got home and ate and now here i am.

Well, since I'm going to redo me AIM profile, here. I can't bear to delete these:

whodatliloldman: i miss you guys too! *blows kiss (in a completely straight, guy-liking kind of way)*

ChocolateB52sGal: I am not calm. I'm fucking Tigger.
Leadonn: ...i didn't know humans could do that with a Tigger.

ChocolateB52sGal: Don't moo at me.
ChocolateB52sGal: And for the record, I am sober.
ChocolateB52sGal: For the record, I'm not on acid either.
Leadonn: ...suuuuuure
ChocolateB52sGal: I resent th- look, a bunny.

ChocolateB52sGal: Its hard to find high quality pictures of pudding.
ChocolateB52sGal: I'm an elitist pic whore.


Yeah. Anyway, Sybbie came over today. Funfunfun. La. We painted a shelf (the way we did the mirror!) and it looks awesome. Syb painted some Nirvana lyrics on it cuz she couldn't get "Smells Like Teen Spirit" out of her head. We stopped and had a lunch break, eating frozen omelettes and fried potatoes and drinking Nescafe Frothes with Nesquick Triple Chocolate powder added in (my own devisement). Mmmmmmm good.
When we finally finished we started to play Sims Makin' Magic, building another one of our amazingly cool yet tacky and awesome houses. Yeah. We have talent. :-D Dad took her home and then we went to Jersey Mike's to pick up dinner. Nummy.
I is waiting for Jon to AIM OR CALL ME ABOUT TOMORROW...so...yeah...I'm here. O.O

I shall start off with a quiz.


There you go.
Today.
We didn't get report cards today. The teachers (slackers they are) didn't have all the grades in. My mom said it might have been cuz so many people were sick. That might be it. *shrugs*
Gah. I had so much homework tonight. Ms. Chow really layed it on, and we had a ton of math too.
I feel bad for Mrs. Wilkerson. Her dad died and she found out right in the middle of class. She was crying.
*sighs*

Yup. I've felt really exhausted this week. That's what happens when I get used to staying up til about 1 (cuz I can't sleep) for two weeks. La. I've got dark circles under my eyes, and contrary to what my dad says, they aren't due to "too much" eye makeup.
I have eaten little for the last two days. My stomach refuses to acknowledge that food is good and will keep me alive. It simply says "EWW" and clenches up and then I hurt. But I'm forcing myself to eat, and the more I eat, the shorter the time it hurts. I guess I'll deal with it.
Meredith's coming over tomorrow, and we're gonna do some painting. We always make the weirdest things together. They always come out so cool. Weeeee...
In closing...

Lithium

I'm so happy because today
I've found my friends ...
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you...
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze...
'Cause I've found god - yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm so lonely but that's okay I shaved my head...
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard...
But I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there...
But I don't care
I'm so horny but that's okay...
My will is good - yeah, yeah, yeah

I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I kill you - I'm not gonna crack

Been back in school. So far my exam grades have been about what i expected. My spanish was higher and my algebra lower. we get report cards tomorrow. >.<
I don't feel well. I am nauseated. Ilg.

*sobs like a baby*
I don't want to have first lunch, and knowing Dr. Gulino, I'll have it. I mean, it'd be nice to have lunch with Jess and it'd be right after gym, but Jon has 3rd.
And I really don't wanna know my exam grade in math. I mean, I don't think I did that bad but I had this horrible dream that we got our grades back and I did REALLY well on everything except math. In the dream, I did SO bad on the math exam that they didn't even give me a grade, it was THAT bad. Needless to say, I don't take that for a GOOD omen. O.O
Went to the mall today with Jess. We saw Mona Lisa Smile, which was ok. Pretty good except for the gushy moments. Kinda chicky fliccy, but actually not. Had a good, theme, I guess you'd call it that. Don't get married cuz you're forced to. And the point of life is not to get married. *nods* Do want you want, pursue your dreams, if a man is one of them, good for you, but don't build yourself up purely for the purpose of marriage. What a sad life the girl of 1954 did lead. Heh.
Then Jess and I walked around a bit, got food, walked some more. I got some stockings and bracelets at Claire's and a calander with Fender guitars (prettyful). We got some Mad Libs at Walden Books and sat and did those. Walden's has SOOOOOO much manga, it's madness! and wallscrolls! AND A $40 INUYASHA HOODIE!!!!! AND SOME CHOBITS FIGURINES!!!!!!! Then we went to wait for Dad and got some snacks. Saw Grace Morris. She said hi. That's it.





I DON"T WANNA GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ate too much. Had fudge swirl cake with dark chocolate fudge icing and then some left over Pleasant Ridge Chili fries. I put cheeeeeese on them. And now my arteries hurt. :-P
JESSICA IS BACK!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!
Yesterday went to the Main Library for the meeting thing. Twas ok. Then Jon came over. THat's always goodgood. :-D
Today I went to my Gramma's and she totally loaded me up on makeup. And now I'm allowed to wear it as long as it's tasteful. "tasteful". So, yeah. She told me "go home and make yourself up like a tart."
We went to the 99cent store. Got this neat lacey scarf thing and some liquid eyeliner and some floss and something else...don't remember...*shrugs*.
Then came home and went driving. In the rain. That made me nervous. And now Dad's having me practive going in reverse. O.O I do not like that. Not in the rain. But I did pretty good. Then, when we got to the end of the street on the way home, Dad got out and let me drive and pull in the driveway. I did ok...>.>
Then ate dinner, went to Bigg's for cake mix. Came home and baked a delicious fudge marble cake with dark chocolate fudge icing. Then I cleaned Elvis and Lesley's cages. And now here I am.
Tomorrow should be a pretty good last day of vacation. Jessica and I are going to Kenwood Mall to see Mona Lisa Smile (the only not R rated one that looked good) and then just look around. I feel like spending money. :-D
I don't wanna go back to schoooooooooool!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Rather, I just don't want to sit through boring classes and listen to boring teachers and do HARD work. (I'm thinking of Algebra). And I don't wanna get my report card either. *shivers* (again, thinking of Algebra).
La. My last semester of gym EVER!!
*sighs* there is no one online to talk to. Everyone has away messages or has gotten offline. It's only quarter after 9!!
Feh.

Today was pretty good. I woke up with a POUNDING headache. Cuz of the weather. I'm pretty much all better now. I think so, at least.
Went thrifting with Mom and Gramma today. Got a neat skirt. Then we went for lunch at Burger King. Then took Gramma home and Grampa gave me a bannana (he thinks I don't get enough fruit) and $30. Then Mom and I stopped at Goodwill where I got nothing. Then went home and then to Target where I hit the jackpot. I got a prettyful black and white striped shirt for $10 and I got fishnet SOCKS (in black and flourescent orange) that I'm gonna make into arm things and I got some lace arm warmers and I got knee high fishnets (black and flourescent pink). Mom bought me another pair of the lace arm warmers and some gum, a multi colored tinsel Christmas tree, and some other stuff.
Then Ann and Fabien came over. La. Blah. :-P
Tomorrow I have to do that stupid Teen Advisory Board thing and then Jon's coming over and we're gonna watch Ranma 1/2 and I'm gonna draw his guitar.

I stole this from Sybbie who stole it from nytekellyn.

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
Gained a boyfriend.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Um...just about eery woman across the street from me, and then Sherry down the street.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No one close, but a few relatives. Great uncles and aunts.

5. What countries did you visit?
I've never been out of the US.

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
FREEDOM.

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
September 24, the day Jon asked me out. And October 18, homecoming dance.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Well, considering my low low grade in Algerbra, other than that, my grades have been the best they have been in quite a while. I've been working my butt off. Getting an A at midterm in Chem was pretty good. I mean...I have Mrs. Chow...don't know HOW I pulled that one off...

9. What was your biggest failure?
Cutting myself. And doing bad in math.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I'm a sickly child. I have a mono related virus now, as well as about 8 sinus infections, strep, and ear infections. oh yeah, and Migraines.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My anime stuff. All of it.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
...I don't know.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Into my money box or into the hands of waiting cashiers from whom I fed my anime addiction.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I can't really think of anything...maybe going to my Gramparents in KY. That's sad...wait...Chicago trip in 9th grade...that was 2003...


16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
I don't know...the year changes so often, you can't put one song to it.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier. Thank you Jon.
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter. And I need to lose weight. Seriously.
iii. richer or poorer? About the same.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I had taken more chances.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Done less stupid self-depricating actions and not hurt myself and others.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas at home, with my parents. Then visited my Uncle and cousins. And my sister and brother-in-law came over.

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
Heh. That's so corny. But yes. Yes I did. I love you Jon.

23. How many one-night stands?
WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM???

24. What was your favorite TV program?
*sighs* I don't know. InuYasha. YES!! INUYASHA!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, but I still hate the people I hated last year. :-P

26. What was the best book you read?
Oooooh...so many...anything by Francesca Lia Block...um. So many vampire books...Interview with a Vampire...The Vampire Lestat...um...The silver Kiss...

27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
um...basically the same old stuff. I listened to a lot more Nirvana and Foo Fighters...more Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Grateful Dead...

28. What did you want and get?
New Prismacolored colored pencils. what?? i'm easily pleased.

29. What did you want and not get?
Anime DVDs for xmas.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Return of the King! Return of the King! and Pirates of The Caribbean!!!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Woke up, went to school, took a test...don't remember much else. 15.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having the freedom to do what I want, when I want, with whom I want.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
Just a tad bit more gothic. Certainly stranger. Much more creative.

34. What kept you sane?
define sane.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!!!!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
War in Iraq.
Bush drilling in the Arctic National Refuge.

37. Who did you miss?
Becky.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Rosemary.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
Life sucks. Learn to deal.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
There is not one song lyric to sum up my year. It was just that freaking weird.